Today I finally decided to post my current progress picture and my goal picture of what I want to get back to. I honestly been avoiding this post, but Bryan said it is important to face my biggest insecurities in order to be transparent to my reader and myself. I always look at old pictures of me and self shame myself about my weight. I won’t deny this is the most I have been over weight ever. While taking my current photo I honestly hated myself. I keep telling my self how fat and ugly I am. After comparing my current photo with my old photo I cried. I honestly can not look at myself in the mirror the way I am. But then I stop took a deep breath and told myself “work hard and you will get there, these things take time.” I keep trying to not be discouraged and keep working because I will get there. a couple weeks from now I will be there and when I do, it will be all worth it. I will grab my body an embrace it today. My goal for today is to not say anyone negative thoughts about me body and remain positive! LET’S KEEP MOVING!